Month: November 2017

Dear Diary: Who am I Becoming?

So I’ve decided to use a little corner of this here blog to give you an insight into how my mind works. In these ‘Dear Diary’ posts, I will be sharing and expanding some of my journal entries, to let you see some of the mental ramblings going on in my head. I’m hoping that by sharing some of these there are people out there who read them and realise that they are not alone, and that some other crazy thinks the same way they do.

Dear Diary,

Trying to decide who I am and who I want to be has been a little difficult of late.

I was so sure of myself and who I thought I was upon my return to university this year. I had thought I was so sure of the woman I was, who I wanted to be, what I wanted to get done with my year.

It would seem, however, that something has changed. I have changed.

It’s hard to describe. It’s like a pressure inside my chest; like something just isn’t sitting quite right, like I’m a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. Things that normally wouldn’t bother me are starting to really irritate me, my tastes in things, in people even, have changed.

I felt it most on my trip to London. Glasgow, and Scotland, will always be my home, but there was just a strange energy in London. Something clicked in a way. The people and the city just seemed…right. It seemed to fit with me and my vision of how I see myself. Which in a way makes me feel really, really guilty. Like I’m betraying Glasgow and Scotland and home and all they’ve given me and all they mean to me.

Maybe all I need is to get away from Glasgow. I’ve been here for twenty years now. I’m maybe just feeling a little bit of cabin fever and my trip to London just felt like an escape, a place to breathe.

This feeling is making me question and rethink some of my life goals and big life choices that I’ve made recently. I still know the destination I want to reach, but the road I want to follow has become very foggy and unclear, and I’m just not to sure where to go. The yellow brick road has broken up and disappeared from view.

I think, in truth, that all that is happening is that I am beginning my transition into adulthood and making adult decisions, and it is terrifying. These periods of change are always uncomfortable, and you don’t always fit in the new space that the universe is making for you for a while.

But that’s okay.

We’re allowed to need some time to re-mould ourselves into the fabulous butterflies that we will be in our futures. We just have to deal with being very hungry caterpillars for a little while longer.

My Goals For November 2017

I’m now a week into November, which seems a little late to be setting some goals for the month, but ah well. I’m not really counting last week as existing in my Boss Babe plan. I was on holiday. Boy did I need my holiday!

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But alas! Back to normality it is.

It took me a while, but I’m really becoming quite the goal-setting, goal-getting queen. I found a wee list of goals I’d set myself for 2017 recently, and you know what? I’ve achieved them all. Well, all but one, but I’m on course to achieve that before the year’s out (she prays hopefully).

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Win NaNoWriMo

I’ve an essay to write, I’ve music to learn, there’s a diary of concerts, and I’ve barely put pen to paper so far, but what’s a list of goals without a ridiculously un-achievable one, eh? Even I admit 50,000 is quite out of reach, so I’ve set myself a goal of 25,000 – 30,000 instead. I’ll take that for the moment.

Make My First Affiliate Sale

I’ve been at this blogging malarchy for a while now, but only recently have I actually started taking it seriously. The fact that I’ve kept it ticking over for so long is impressive for a non-starter like me, so it’d be nice if I can keep working at it long enough to actually get something back from it this month.

Reach 100 Likes on Facebook

I’m so close! At the time of writing, I’m at 77 likes. Help a gal out?

Start an Email Newsletter

I have utterly no idea what I intend to put in this email newsletter just yet, but my email list is starting to grow, and I feel like I owe it to those who’ve made an effort to subscribe to my blog to make effort in return. Stay tuned guys! And if you haven’t subscribed…

Happy Movember lads!!

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My Favourite Candle Brands

I love candles!

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Seriously, I absolutely love them. Ask anyone. Especially my parents, who object to me burning them in the house.

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The atmosphere of candlelight is just so warm and cosy and unique. I’m also a bit of a pyro, so the addition of fire and a flame just makes them even better. I love watching the flames flicker and dance about before my eyes.

Finding the perfect candle is so difficult. It does depend on what I’m buying them for – Primark £1 tealights do the trick if all I’m after is a little mood-lighting. But if I’m looking for high quality, heavily scented candles to light my bath or scent my room, then I am pretty picky.

DW Home

I came across this brand entirely by accident. If you take me a shop which happens to sell home and interior products, and you allow me to stray from your side, you will most likely find me looking at notebooks and stationery, or with my nose stuck in some candles. That is exactly what I was doing when I came across what is quite possibly my favourite candle ever!

Apple Blossom is not a scent I ever thought I would come across, but it is the most divine scent in the world. I don’t even have to light this candle to love it. All I have to do is remove the lid and its scent fills the room.

They do seem to have discontinued the Apple Blossom scent, ad this breaks my heart as my candle is almost burnt down, but I guess this just gives me a chance to fall in love with some other fabulous scent. Their fall scents seem intriguing – pumpkin toffee? Yes, please!

The Skye Candle Company

They’re a candle company. They’re Scottish. Their candles are made from soy wax, which produces a cleaner burn. I’m in love.

This fabulous little company was founded by James Robertson all on his lonesome, just crafting perfect candles tucked away on the beautiful Isle of Skye.

These candles are brilliant: they just burn forever. I bought myself two for my Christmas last year and thought I’d save one until the other burnt down.

It’s still going!

The Scottish Collection has to be my favourite. These 6 scents are inspired by Scotland and the Scottish landscape. I personally have the Highland Gorse and the Raspberry and White Ginger Tumblers and I absolutely love them. The Heather and Wild Berries and the Scots Pine scents seem to be new since I was last in store. I’ll need to take a gander next time I’m free.

Any other candle companies you need to recommend to me guys? I’m a candle connoisseur, always on the lookout. What are your favourite scents?

Glencoe: You’ll Never Feel So Small

There are no words to describe it. The awe-inspiring, breath taking sensation of standing amidst the colossal, ominous mountains of Glencoe.

One of Scotland’s most famous must-see landmarks, Glencoe is truly a unique place on Planet Earth. Its atmosphere is both magnificent and foreboding. The tiny, weaving A9, as seen in James Bond and M’s trip up north in Skyfall, snakes its way first across Rannoch Moor (a must see on its own, although better seen together with Glencoe) before, suddenly, looming out of the dark, grumbling rain clouds, is perhaps Glencoe’s most famous peak, Buchaille Etive Mor.

Rannoch Moor from the West Highland Way

This terrifying mountain is simply jaw-dropping, a sight so unique to Scotland. The mountains and falls of Glencoe inspire a sense of awe, and oh boy do they demand your respect. Buchaille Etive Mor is an example why – this mountain claims lives, frequently. She and her sisters are no pushovers. They are much like Scottish women – nice to look at, you know they’re a challenge, but if you let your guard down, God help you.

The road wraps around the base of the mountain, entering the Glen and leaving the flat, barren landscape of Rannoch Moor behind.

For a driver, this road is heaven. Great sweeping curves, well-maintained surfaces. But you have to know what you’re doing, as it’s not an easy road to drive. The best things in the world never are. There was a fatal accident when we were up there, and it caused chaos and commotion for hours.

Driving through Glencoe is one thing, but actually pulling up and getting out of the car to look around, is another thing entirely. The feeling I had when I stepped out of the car…I have never felt so small.

NaNoWriMo 2017: Here We Go

Public Service Announcement: I, Lauren, have decided to take on the arduous (and quite frankly insane) challenge of NaNoWriMo 2017!

NaNoWriMo 2017 Preptober

NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month, takes place in the month of November every year. Its many, many participants all challenge themselves to write a 50,000-word novel in thirty days.

Crazy, right?

Now I am under no illusions as to how impossibly difficult this challenge will be, or that I am highly unlikely to make the 50,000-word target. Firstly, I am a full-time university student with a many hours a week job on top. Second, I am a music student, meaning that much of my ‘free time’ is spent in a practice room. Third, I also have a 2,500-word history essay due at the beginning of December.

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But despite my ridiculously hectic schedule I am determined to give NaNoWriMo a whack, because a)I may be slightly insane and b) I have wanted to take part in NaNoWriMo since the day I discovered it, so why not now?

So buckle up, settle down, and wish me luck, because life is about to get coo-coo-ca-choo crazy!

(But in a very good way.)

 

Side Note: It’s nearly Christmas!!

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