“All truly great thoughts are conceived while walking.”
Today I took a walk.
Lately my head has been overwhelmed by thought’s of “what’s next?”. That all-consuming question of what to do with this intoxicating oblivion known as Life.
People keep asking me “what’s next?”. I don’t know.
I mean, I have a vague idea. Work. Save money. Return to singing when finances and voice deem it a pertinent choice.
Until then? No idea.
At least I have a vague plan, I suppose. That’s the problem, though. It’s too vague. There’s a big two to three (or maybe longer) gap between now and the end of this plan. That’s a lot of time, and none at all.
In truth, I’m quite content with my life right now. I like working where I’m working, doing what I’m doing. Writing to you guys and mulling over the general meaning of Life. If money and people’s opinions were of no object, I’d probably just carry on as I am until it became time to return to true adulthood and progressing through Life.
The issue with that plan is that I can barely afford the things I want to do now, let alone save the kinds of money I need to be saving to pay for a Master’s. The only way to make any more money with my current job is to take on more hours. Much as I love my job and the people I work with, for the sake of my mental health and well-being, it’s just not an option.
I could find another job. Plenty of people work two jobs. I’ve done it before. The variety would be really beneficial, as well as the added structure and routine it would offer.
I could find another job entirely. Something better paid part-time, or full -time completely. Question is, do I want to start a whole new career, knowing I may be leaving the post in two to three years? I’ve got a good thing going where I work. Would it be the best option to throw the towel in there for something else that may fall through?
If I’m honest, my ideal scenario would be to continue working my current job, and also begin freelancing as a writer. I love writing, and I’ve been fascinated by the world of blogging since I discovered it 4 years ago.
There’s so much self-doubt in my head, and it keeps me from really going for it. Could I turn my little corner of the internet into something profitable? Would people really be interested in what I have to say?
I want to write. I want to write on my blog and spew my thought out on digital paper.
I also want to write novels. There are so many stories floating around in my head just desperate to make themselves known. For as long as I can remember, there has always been a desire to be a novelist.
This is why I took my walk. Walking, without headphones or distractions, is the best way to clear my head.
As the motion of walking becomes more and more autonomous, so too do my thoughts become clearer and easier to listen to.
I walk, and mull over my most difficult and confusing problems, and most times, I come home with a better perspective on what’s been bothering me. Sometimes, I even manage to solve the problem entirely.
There’s a magic and wonder to be found when walking through the woods on a sunny day with nothing and no one but yourself.
I may not have completely figured out what I intend to do just yet, but I do have a better idea.
I want to write.
I’m going to write.
I’m going to write here on Wandering Scotland far more frequently. I know that if I want to build this into something viable I need consistency, and that’s what you’re going to get.
I’ve signed up to the Grow and Glow membership, alongside others, to really define what I want to share, here on the blog and on other platforms.
I’m also going to get started on that novel I’ve dreamed of writing, and possibly a non-fiction book as well. You guys can follow along with my progress on my Instagram. I’m also considering starting a subscription service, where you guys can ‘pay’ me each month, and in return, you’ll receive behind the scenes access and additional bonuses, such as chapter drafts and even the possibility of my characters being named after you!
I’m looking into ways to make this little corner of the internet viable for me, and I’m excited to see where it takes me. I know I’ve said this before, and then disappeared from sight for God knows how long, but this time is different. I have the time and the energy to focus on working towards what I want, and I know that this is the right thing for me.
Wish me luck!